When nothing feels “right”

How do we hold ourselves

When nothing feels “right”?

When things come crashing down around us, when our world is being torn apart from inside of us?

I don’t know how to be “okay” when things aren’t okay anymore

And I don’t have to

And that is beautiful in its own gut wrenching heart breaking way

I’m not okay today

And I can be in the liminal space

Raw and empty

Broken completely open

And all I can do is surrender

To the pain

The uncertainty 

The heartbreak

My soul is screaming from the inside out

“Nothing is right!”

And yet somehow 

I know 

The pain I feel 

the grief 

brings me back to my core

To the deep sense of who i am

Empty and broken

I am asking myself why

And there is no answer

There is no resolution 

An empty void lies at my feet

And all I can do is surrender